4/11/2007

Wheeee....play almost 2 days de looo...after the paper on friday i got 10 days of rest...b4 i carry on...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!...ok back to the point...i still got my project due 19th nov...gotta get it started de...tomolo iz sunday...i think i will try my best tomolo...haihz..cant say the paper on friday was good...in fact the tips were all wrong...hahaha...but at least i know i hav done all tat i could...even if i spend more time reading the day or few days b4, i dun think i can improve a lot nia...at least i m convincing myself to think like tat...so dun feel tat terrible...if got sumone comfort me like tat then sure 100% ok de now...hehehe...haihz...actually i wana go play more nia....but after chatting wif a few ppl i find out tat i m considered lazy de...a coursemate finished part of the project aledi...n sum ppl i know iz studying hard even though their paper almost as far away as mine...mayb different course requirements? as usual my memory iz not tat good nia...i m considered lucky tat my course dun really require me to memorise a lot of facts...especially facts tat i m not interested in...if i landed in sum chemistry related course i would b failing my subjects instead of it being B and above...there r ppl who study for themselves n there r ppl who study for others...i m in the second category...i study for others...i study to make my parents happy...n later wen i graduate land a better job to financially support my parents n future family...i study to not lose to my frens...but i know now certain courses r easier to score compared to others...so i guess really kenot compare...but even if i do not need to study tat much...perhaps i can b a source of motivation for others as they hav been for me...i will feel kinda uncomfortable wen i see others studying while i juz sit there playing...but mayb they hav their own plans...mayb study hard for now then go play later? will i b a fool for studying as well? i guess not gua...dun think anyone can overprepare for anything...but for now i still follow wat my heart feels along wif wat my brain thinks...if i feel like i wana play, after thinking wat stuff i havent do, i will make my decision...life iz too short...dun wana live wif regrets or thinking bout past possibilities...ok, itz impossible to do tat but i wana minimize it as much as possible...however, life iz not so short until u dun need to think of the future...hehehe...understand mah?? i guess tatz it...gona sleep soon...bb~

2/11/2007

Exam loh!!!! in less than 9 hours...i will b sitting in the exam hall...hm...i guess i hav done everything tat i can today...yesterday night after supper i came back to my room n played a round of dota promising tat i wont play today...the group win wif a big margin...it was fun...sumhow i feel it was back in form 6 again...the confidence...hahaha...i dedicate the victory to all my frens studying hard nia...hope they will do well in their exams...true enuf today i didnt play...onli played king of fighters 2002...tat lasted less than 20 minutes..most of my time today used to study n surfing the net..earlier during lunch i bit my lip!! so pain de...bleeding...swollen a bit as well...later during dinner i m veli afraid tat i will bite it again...hahaha...hm..the rest of the day iz rather normal nia...spent dinner alone...dun really think tat much nowadays...mayb i think till sien de...or iz juz tat in the end the problem comes from myself...if any of u invited me for dinner juz bcoz u read my blog or anything...then rather not...i oso dun like to 'invade'..meaning suddenly invite myself into a dinner group...same goes for inviting me out of pity...after so long i guess the situation juz makes me alone...i find no more reason to blame other ppl de...sum got partners...sum their frenship wif others r much stronger than wif mine...i kenot expect them to think so much of me as i do towards them nia...a strong frenship takes time n tears...nothing will change so quickly within one sem...hm...i guess tatz it...furthermore there r ppl tat their style completely go against mine...juz not compatible i guess...i do not expect any of u to change...coz if it were me, i oso couldnt change lah...itz not tat i hav given up though...there r sumthings tat r better left natural...but there r sumthings tat require a bit of a nudge or even a push to happen...hehehe...content wif my life right now? i cant say tat i hav suffered a lot...i do hav a good family, doing kinda good in my studies....on the other hand i cant really say tat i m truly happy...well...i can juz say tat it iz too early to say anything for sure...hehehee...hope everything iz wat it seems...let there b no more lies or betrayal...but if one can see good n evil so clearly...then one iz aledi similar to a god...i m...no god.

1/11/2007

Hmmm...end of the year de loh...itz 1st November~~~ paper on 2nd =_=...haihz...after studying for a bit still dun really think the stuff iz sticking...sure it gets easier to read...faster even but i m afraid i cant answer during the exams...after a rather bad presentation of a group project i dun think my coarry marks will b any better...juz can hope tat the average iz a bit lower...but wif the bio-informatic third year students scoring such insane marks...anything might happen nia...i cant predict it...i think i better put more effort into my revision tomolo...coz the paper on friday starts at 8.30am...so no time to review it again in the morning...straight to the exam hall..hopefully nothing pops up suddenly tomolo...but even if it did...depends on the event ler...itz 1230 now...i dun think i can study anymore...kinda full de...today...nothing much happened...spent almost the whole afternoon chatting wif ppl...catch up on sum things...oh yeah now i can finally go on9 in room de...but i m still blogging from outside using wireless connection hehe...everyday iz routine...wake up, go wash up n stuff then play games...afternoon go eat lunch...come back play summore or rest a bit...then shud start studying in the evening de...i think tomolo kenot do tat liao loh...see how loh..now i juz wana play sum game...but izzit the correct thing to do? i really m afraid of getting low marks tis friday paper...decisions, decisions...