22/1/2008

Hmhmhm...tuesday liao...tis week hopefully will b an eventful one...got PAP dinner nia...finally i could go eat de~~...n then there iz a dota competition tis coming weekend...hahah i m not playing nia..soli to disappoint if i did...i will be there to support my former teammates though...all of them asking why didnt i form a team of my own? hm....not tat i dun wan but the players here r still kinda green...tatz my opinion lah...i will b bringing them directly to b slaughtered juz for me to play?? dun wan loh...passed up the first part of my full sem project...then presented a research assignment...n went to robotics lab...seems like i done a lot nia...i do feel kinda glad...at least for the rest of tis week...next week second part of the project de loh...itz still early now...n i dun really feel like going supper alone...but dun really feel like eating biscuits in my room either...haihz...i think it wouldnt hurt to skip supper once or twice...my gastric problem iz getting more serious...earlier i imagined an argument wif sum ppl i know...hahaha i always do tis dunno why...for u all who didnt read my original Friendster blog b4...i hav mentioned a lot of times...my brain dun really shut down...always thinking all the possibilities...i dun focus on negative parts onli lah hahaha...anyhow i think it iz a valid point if i say i m suffering like tis..er...gastrically bcoz of the ppl here...i nvr had any problems wif gastric b4 i came here..then wen i m in UKM de, i dun hav transport...it was hell...waiting for ppl to dapao for me n stuff...if seniors or ppl wif transport dun go out to eat...i hav nothing much to eat de...the amount of food i eat decreased significantly...last sem even wif motor it didnt improve much...everyone eats their meal late...sumtimes wen say go out for dinner oso hav to wait they set up transport, borrow helmet, wait sum guy or girl...i will b starving like mad...n misunderstandings happen most of the time juz like tat...i cant think rationally wen i m hungry...now itz too late to do anything for my gastric system de...i developed a rather serious one as i generate gas...meaning the opposing effect of being full...wen u eat a lot...u burp or fart rite? wen i get hungry...i do tat instead...after asking around itz a rather serious condition as the body iz going in reverse...well wat to do...the shit tat i do for everyone...hahaha...not tat it matters now...my voice will nvr reach them...itz been a week de...no one really contacted me...i guess tatz the extent of our frenship eh guys?? however...thanx for all the memorable moments nia...even though it might not b sincere, or it might not b everlasting...it was fun..hehehe...

18/1/2008

Believe that i believe in you as much as i believe that u believe in me...and with all that, believe in yourself.

An anime taught me that. When the character died, i too was sad along with the rest of the characters in the anime. I was looking for inspiration in him as much as them. But, how come people like him only exists in anime? Only anime show me what motivation, self-confidence, trust or friendship can achieve. Is there no more real life stories? Not many people give me inspiration. Bah, never mind.

13/1/2008

Finally the weekends gona b over..n i came to sum private conclusions...important ones...ones tat r positive n m glad tat i could realize it early...life iz not meant to b thrown away..after almost crashing my motor down the ground another time...n receiving sum valuable advice...advice tat actually got through my thick skull...i was lucky tis time...coz i understood how my motor will react if i brake suddenly..so i separated the braking juz in time to negotiate the corner...i shouldnt hav been speeding anyway...i tot it was juz for fun...hahaha...the scars from the past saved the present me...came back to the room...heartbeat still a bit fast...then go take bath n sat down in front of the laptop reading a manga...a manga regarding a doctor n how he helps his patients without regard towards his superiors or the administration...the chapter follows the story of an old woman suffering from cancer...not onli tat she iz suffering from the medication as well...the clever script as well as the life-like drawings almost made me shed a tear...if it was sumone i knew lying down there suffering...walao...n the old woman....her husband did everything he could...n luckily the main character iz who he iz...a hero...a hero going against the corrupt hospital officials...it also shed light towards wat doctors hav to face everyday...indeed there r happy moments...but faces of anguish n extreme sadness...even despair r visible as well...patients who blame the doctors...life iz important...i certainly will appreciate my life more watever the circumstances might b...i really will try my best to drive carefully wenever possible...hahaha...oh yeah...the ATM machine can reload handphone credit...today really studied a bit...feel kinda satisfied...understood how girls r generally smarter than boys...wen u got nothing to do...u juz kinda get more curious bout things i guess...as i went through the notes, i surfed the net to search for terms i dun understand...even though the lecturer might not hav covered it i still looked for it...why?..normally i might even think tat it iz troublesome...itz bcoz i m studying n i m not in a rush to do anything...there iz nothing planned...no outings, no dinner trips...i got nothing to do...playing a game or not iz completely up to me...i can play wenever i wan anyway...or mayb i juz wana improve on the way i study last sem...seeing how everyone say i muz try my best tis sem...i will make sure it will b more erm....dunno how to put it ler...if after going so far as to study from the second week of the semester onwards dont put me in the dean's list i m gona whack those fellas saying i shud try my best...sumtimes trying hard iz not good enuf...sumthings juz wont work in yur favor...but there iz nothing to lose iz there...bsides...i might even gain sumthing from tis...by proving it wrong n spitting it at their faces hehehe....using me as a real-life guinea pig...i think nothing else to say liao loh...tatz all for now...still feel kinda fresh after the bath...play game sin~~....bb