3/5/2008

Another manga picture i came across not too long ago...Hohoho...i can onli dream bout sumthing like tis~~....wana cut tis short as it iz 4 sumthing in the morning now...seriously i hav been sleeping around 4 almost every night...spoil my health nia...so today i didnt really study...instead went out wif frens....to Subang~~ hahaha...nvr went thr b4...it was nice..erm...n i think my hair really iz veli long d...need to trim it soon...sumhow =_=...oklah...will blog after i sleep gua...dpends~~>..bb

Manga~ (2/5/2008)

My Journey so far~

I came to this university all injured inside...wasnt easy surviving in university...n i cant really speak in mandarin as well...frens...no...ppl tat i know r veli few...even though i got mix around but i myself was unsure if the smiles n the laughs r real or not...m i lying even to myself in order to keep going on??...battles were fought frequently...internal battles mostly...my mind was in a state of chaos...

However, i came to meet a girl tat i like....yeah...i think she was sparkling at tat time as well...

Well those days were fun...flirting wif each other...hahaha i think she saw right through me considering i was behaving ackwardly...i still dunno how to really sweet talk a girl i guess...n my tries were funny...even i myself think i must hav looked silly...seriously, i hav no experience wif a girl beforehand...my secondary school onli hav girls during form 6...

Sadly, things got complicated real quickly....a war rages n a lot of ppl were affected...sum hurt..while sum changed entirely...

Sum time passed since the war...even though majority of the fighting iz over...i know mine hasnt...but it was wif a different purpose...wif a different target...the aftermath was great...however i think i came to an important conclusion...which i chose to stick wif...

Hopefully i can stick to the conclusion as long as possible...a lot of ppl asked me after they know bout my fight...'why go so far'...'why so stupid?'...'wat do u think u can possibly achieve wif tis?'...'it might not work'...hahaha itz actually quite simple...'i want to see her smiling face'...isnt tat a good enough reason?

Hahaha my story end joh loh...tis picture iz juz one of my idols...his way of thinking, his character n his ideals...r all respectable...even though he iz not real...the way the author depicts him...itz way better than most ppl around here already...hopefully i can be strong like him...n continue fighting on~...anyway if any1 likes tis post plz tell...i will try to include stuff like tis in the future~~...time to sleep aledi...hahaha tis post took me almost an hour to settle =_=

1/5/2008

Hohoho...May liao...Labour Day~~ Holiday~~...doesnt make much difference anyhow =_=...i m bored like crap now...dun feel like playing dota...juz lost a match earlier...hm...rite now feel like wana chat wif sum1...juz relax n enjoy the free time...but looks like itz not possible T_T....onli a few of us remain...sum r bz...most r guys...girls wont b interested in coming out so late..those who sleep late cant on9 as well...my options r severely limited due to certain circumstances...which i hav no control of...yeah mayb thr r a few special cases but i hav special reasons to accompany it as well~...therefore i m here blogging again...today no special topic to blog either...nothing happened tat made me think bout things...hm..anyhow i will juz proceed to report wat happened today then...hahaha...tis morning went for exam...urgh it was terrible...asked us a lot of stuff tat r not available in the slides...sum r not even in the book!!...how do the lecturer expect us to answer correctly??...haiz..looks like my exam results tis sem wont b pretty...another paper remain...next monday....then presentation...wonder how many times hav i mentioned it aledi hahaha..anyway nothing much for the rest of the day sadly...came back from exam, went lunch, play dota, sleep, spent time day-dreaming at the badminton court...but the court iz not full today...not many ppl playing...i like to day-dream at a crowded place...wonder why though...provides a lot of stuff to think about? wont get bored staring at the surroundings? hahaha...after tat dinner, dota, n then supper loh....hm..sounds boring huh...like nvr really do anything at all...anyhow today dota i got pissed off all of a sudden...mayb my mood was bad...but i really dislike certain behaviours...i hate being blamed for sumthing beyond my control...i dun like being pushed...in certain circumstances anyway...if u know me enough, u wil know...regarding tat...i realized itz almost impossible to expect other ppl to understand things without me saying it so clearly...but i think itz like common sense...mayb it iz to me onli? i m the weird one anyway hahaha...how many ppl did i seriously offend anyway?? Those i got involved in an argument with do not count...both sides r hurt...i didnt really offend any1 otherwise did i? Sumtimes i wud appreciate sum feedback...i dun wan other ppl to label me as a hypocrite...if i cant give a logical or acceptable explanation to my behaviour while i say otherwise in my blog..then i will apologise n wont say it again till i myself hav changed...watz the purpose of always saying ppl dun care bout me, not sensitive enuf etc wen i dun care bout others as well rite? hahaha...by then ppl will onli say i deserve it...but my current predicament...do i really deserve it or not??...yeah...since i dun really hav much to say, i wana touch bout one of the arguments i had...coz i saw the person recently hahaha...yeah i m talking bout u if u r reading tis...juz wana touch one aspect of our conversation back then...hm...i might not b able to reproduce the exact same stuff but it sounds like tis...i was talking...ok i was complaining bout how lonely i m as usual...well i think wen ppl iz being sad bout being lonely...try not to recount how many good frens u hav in front of me...itz like i m saying i m veli poor n then u r counting yur money in yur wallet...either u r trying to b funny or u r juz insensitive...well i cant blame u if u tried giving advice coz u r juz trying to help right?? however...wen ppl start to ask 'how bout so n so leh?' forces me to recollect why me n tat person iz not close frens in the first place...wat might hav happened between us or wat stopped us from getting close etc...trust me, if there was sumthing i could do..i wud hav done so...but if u really think i shud try yur opinion then feel free to say it la...but wat i m really hoping for iz for ppl to understand n acknowledge wat i hav gone through i suppose....so far onli 1 person did so....guy summore =_=...haiz...like i said...i shouldnt hav expected any1 to understand anything without first saying it out loud...but does it mean anything at all if sumthing changes after tis? watz the point if u do so onli to make me happy or juz bcoz i say so...i m sure u oso hav tis feeling...wen u r hoping sum1 to do sumting automatically n give u a pleasant surprise...stuff like tis dont happen to me often =_=...well i guess tis iz all i wana say...at least for now la...hahaha even though i m blogging everyday but my posts r as long as ever~...Iron Man came out aledi...wanted to go see today geh...but no ppl...coz the coming days sure full...Labour Day..then weekends...haiz...but thinking of an outing now dont make me feel excited or anything...mayb coz i know it wont happen or i wan sumthing else? dunno la...hm...next monday...final paper...n then i can finally tell the truth bout my plan...itz been a long ride...well the reason i chose to reveal it iz bcoz i think i owe sum ppl explanation...furthermore after tis sem i third sem...then LI aledi...wont b returning to UKM till next january..i guess tatz more than enuf time to leave everyting bhind me n move on wif my life...even if the truth spreads around UKM...it wouldnt hav any effect..i wont b around for one thing...n itz aledi too late for anything...however certain ppl might hav known everything aledi...who knows? mayb everyone oso know aledi...my plan iz all for naught...well...dun care la...even if it iz true, nothing much will change...worst case scenario...every1 loses...by then i owe sum ppl an apology...i wont b able to face them i guess...ah...watever la...will know soon~~...really wana go aledi...hahahaha still continuing to talk so much~~ here iz sum veli cool words i found from an anime~~....nitez nia...

Even if we were to be enslaved in the galaxy's cycle of rebirth,
the feelings that were left behind will open the door!
Even if the infinite Universe were to go against us,
our burning blood will cut through fate!
We'll break through the heavens and dimensions!
We'll show you our path through force!
Tengen Toppa Gurren-Lagann! (Heaven-Shattering Gurren-Lagann)
WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK WE ARE?!

awesome...anime of the year leh....one of my favorite anime...