Midnight run~

Haha now i m blogging from a cc in ipoh...n itz 3am now...dota marathon iz indeed fun..hahaha enuf for today...duno will continue till wat time...

Boiling point...

The kettle reach boiling point de...at most iz i can onli add water to slow it but i cannot put out the fire...today iz a frustrating day....i dun really know if i hav the liberty to elaborate here...god knows who might read it...fate has a weird sense of humour hahaha...well perhaps i will go towards personal side la...i think i nvr mentioned tis b4, but my housemate decided to upgrade the TM subscription to 1mb...yes it was originally 512...the subscription package include a TM modem....but since the modem was changed, all hell breaks loose...download speed iz unstable and i cant even play on9 games...yes la...all my afterwork activities went down the drain...not onli tat, i may hav caused my frens the match due to me lagging...ahh..enuf complaining...hell i m even complaining to my brother thru MSN...tis iz horrible~~...better go sleep...

Change of plans...

A change of plans...in a good way hahaha...i will b going back ipoh tis week~~ Actually was supposed to go back next week in conjunction wif Deepavali holidays...but since there iz a chance to earn extra money, why not go for it? Not onli tat, i can mix around wif ppl of relevant interests and sample the newest stuff available for the public...it is going to b held at Midvalley...i can spend some time hanging out there as well...hmm...seems like a good plan indeed...pardon me for the secrecy but u know bout the place i m working...anyhow tis month iz going to b an interesting one...almost every weekend there will be an event...has my spring finally arrived?? lol...it isn't too late to turn the whole year around by ending it wif a bang...a good bang of course ^^...nowadays while working i listen religiously to the songs in the latest Linkin Park album, A Thousand Suns...i m certain that most of us share the same opinion about the song...Iridescent...a quick google will reveal the meaning of the word - displaying a spectrum of colors that shimmer and change as the location of the observer changes...therefore i really agree wif the lyrics...sometimes u juz hav to let it go...do not think that letting it go iz a sign of weakness...oftentimes it takes great strength and force of will to juz let go of sumthing or sumone..this bcomes more relevant when the lyrics read 'Remember all the sadness and frustration'...i think the meaning iz different for each of us but to me it seems to say to accept that it is not worth chasing after anymore...remember all the pain and just let it go...even though it might bring more pain...some ppl might interpret it as juz putting down everything...do not keep the sadness n frustration caused by sumthing or sum1 to remain in yurself anymore...it iz not worth it...or even perhaps to ask us think bout the other side of a conflict..since u know better, u shud juz let go......in any case, i think all interpretation brings positivity....this is a good direction to choose...instead just singing bout angst, drugs or pure negativity, rock can oso be used to sing bout stuff like tis and bring 'hope' to all listeners...i too will let it go soon...Linkin Park rocks!!

Monday night yumcha~~

Yeah juz came back from yumcha wif a fren from ipoh...managed to discuss a whole lot of stuff...now i m left wif many decisions to make..among the most urgent ones would be whether i wan to go back ipoh or not on deepavali...even though i bought the tickets aledi, i think i can switch the date...itz quite a pity to see him working by himself during the PC Expo...tis iz one hard decision...if i skip this one, then wen will i head back ipoh? There are no more public holidays in the short term...and i cant really use any more of my annual leave...i hav 5 aledi reserved for december..hopefully i wont nid to make tis decision alone...i will try to find opinions...ahh...itz been a long time since i went yumcha like tis...sure i do go yumcha wif my housemate but joking in english iz different wif joking in cantonese....and the topics are different...how long hav i waited? sumtimes it makes me wonder....well perhaps 10 years from now i will b able to view the time i spent here more clearly and in a more matured way...and then i can come to a final conclusion : was it worth it?....but for now i shud juz savour the moment and enjoy it..it has been long since i enjoyed myself...everytime i could onli describe wat i see to him through MSN...bringing him around n talking bout things we both are interested in iz seriously different and fun...it iz among the many things that are missing from my life now...though for a moment, it was better than none already..0.1 > 0...

November looms

Another weekend has passed by...and as the post title says, november iz coming...the final 2 months of the year...well first of all, there would be my pay for this month...then i will b coming closer to my first bonus of my working life...hahaha...today i think i will skip my daily status updates...most of it onli hav meaning to those who know bout it or are there with me wen the events happen anyway...earlier i checked the blog stats and seems like i receive some regular page views...izzit by the same person? i do not know but i m indeed glad to see some ppl do read bout tis...if there r any contents tat u wish to read, plz do comment and i will try my best to accomodate yur wishes...counting 2day i think it would make around 2 weeks of continuous blogging? well it iz not sumthing special..i m sure everyone has the ability to blog everyday but it depends on whether they wan to do so or not...some r pretty bz wif their stuff n might feel too tired to blog etc...or perhaps some might think that simple blog posts with no special content are not worth posting at all...ermm....kinda like a memory scrapbook of sorts yeah? then perhaps i m the boring type that does not need any decorations or pictures...i do hav the capacity to express myself in a more interesting manner but i do not see the need to do so...tat would make blogging feel like a chore ^^....now i m juz writing freely...wat i wan and how i wan it to be...not bound by anything but my own whims...but perhaps my whims are not aligned with the general public's interests hahaha...who knows? mayb there will be one day where i will bend...i m aledi bending over backwards for my job...mayb it iz juz a matter of time b4 i bend for sumthing else...hahaha...

Saturday night fever~~

Listening to Linkin Park new album now....damn they rock...at first my initial reaction iz the same wif most ppl...wen i heard the songs i thought tis aint Linkin Park!!!...but as i try listening again...tis time going for the lyrics...they were awesome...hahaha...some of the songs really catchy...the tune iz stuck in my head...n the lyrics are easy to learn...tis morning went for a run then followed my housemate to a country club to play badminton...i think i almost dislocated my shoulder...seriously rusty liao..no more oil in between the joints at all...but it was fun playing badminton again...then head over to the swimming pool to chill!!! it has been ages since i went to a pool...and i can't swim anymore =_=....i used to b able to swim geh...i forgot even the basics de...so juz sit around..nice once in a while to dunk yurself into a pool of water...after tat we headed to McD...hahaha quite a long time havent had a Big Mac as well...after tat, the rest iz kinda routine...trip to cc and then went back sleep, dinner and now i m sitting in front of my pc....downloaded 6gb worth of stuff and it claims to b corrupt...haiz...wat r the odds??...wasted 1 week...logged into garena n started playing mini games...hahaha...sometimes it iz more fun playing all those...but wonder how do ppl actually hav the time n energy to create those maps?? well doesnt matter tat much...time for another dota match and then hit the sack...nitez everybody...n then it will b SUNDAY...

Here comes another weekend...

Ahh...nothing beats a good dota game wif funny frens...hahaha at first i was quite emo...duno why tis few days feeling veli down n empty...earlier after dinner i go cc n play alone tim...no feel at all..waste joh rm3..wat my fren say iz correct de...indulging in yur own sorrow will not solve anything...it will onli breed more sorrow as u empty yur pockets trying to fill in the blanks...but still many ppl like to try drowning everything with beer n liquor...commendable but not reliable haha...i do miss those days though..well most of the time we cannot change our circumstances...tatz why the depression lasts so long...if there iz a valid action or choice to b taken, we would hav done so...yes, there iz always a choice...but choices are seldom solitary..most of them hav far reaching effects or it depends on other factors...so even if u could see a path in front, there might b chains tat tie u down...i guess i shouldnt spend too much time blogging 2nite...nid to wake up exercise 2molo..haha...it will b a 'healthy' day...sumtimes i love being tired...perhaps bcoz most of the time i nvr flex my body...onli sit in office...haiz...growing horizontally summore...yes i gained weight...i m not hoping exercising once a week will help me lose them but at least i might hav a chance of maintaining my current weight....tatz all for today...take care everybody~

Emotions run high...

Today is thursday liao...went to work n greeted wif a defect report from the users/clients...i sighed and went to work on fixing it and preparing my report...itz not a routine thing but bcoz a report came in about a month ago n i got very anxious bout it coz nvr receive sumthing like tat before...itz kinda like a customer complaint...so the related procedures r still quite fresh in my head...but onli thoughts bout the aftermath of such complaints streak through my head...another complaint i thought...year-end appraisal sure die liao lo...wat bout bonus??...i place a very high importance on the year-end bonus...but if really dun hav i oso kenot do anything bout it...such iz the state of my working life...perhaps most of u r wondering...why i nvr go search for the cause? well...the cause iz easy...i juz didnt found the defect...was i not looking hard enuf? not really either...i duno where to look...unless i m the user, i dun think i can really anticipate how i m gona deal wif the application...and my small amount of experience cant help much...haha the defect was from sumthing i coded back in february...back then i only worked for 7 months?...at least i could understand my mistake immediately now...well sumtimes u r buried in yur tasks n u cant see so clearly...but no matter...i know some of u thinking i m juz giving excuses...so i wont waste much more of my words trying to justify my own thinking..ahh...today i sure am emotional...i myself can feel it...i get irritated easily...n i didnt hav much morale to do anything at all...not to mention i lost a round of dota juz now..shud hav juz chatted in msn n watched some anime...everything iz building up at the core of my being...it feels terrible...i dun even know wat i wan to do now...cry? sleep? hit ppl? laugh? play games?...heart juz feels heavy...wat can i do to make it go away? i dun hav much frens nearby...even if i do hav, itz fast approaching 12...some of them nid to work la etc...on MSN? well talking bout matters like tis in MSN might not b a good idea since misunderstandings can occur quite easily...or i will do wat i usually do....swallow it n sleep..n it will stock-pile...soon it will bcome a mountain n a wall...i know itz a bad habit but can u blame me? i m skewered by my own past and factors i could not control...doesnt even leave room for me to breath...i consider myself resilient but this has gone far enough...if days like this were to occur more often....i dun think i can take it anymore...

Return to innocence....

Finally the day has ended...tis marks the beginning of the end...of the week...hahaha...juz reached home not too long ago coz every wednesday got status meeting wif the ppl in charge living at the other side of the world...kinda fun occasionally to speed through the highway on my motorbike without heavy traffic...while chatting wif a colleague today, suddenly touched upon near death experience...the most recent one for me would b the motor crash during second year of uni...the scar still remains but it iz not sumthing to b ashamed of...it iz a reminder of many things...and i m proud of the mark it has on my body...anyway on my way back home, i decided to stop by at the petrol station and then pass by a playground...there i see ppl playing on the swing...and suddenly numerous thoughts race through my head...return to innocence...how nice...wen things were simple and fun...wen a day ends, can't wait for the next to arrive...to go to sleep knowing tomorrow will bring much more fun and joy...and it oso relates to something else...i wish to bring the girl i love to the playground one day....start the night by meeting up at the shopping mall...greeting her wif the shy grin of mine as she walks in with her trademark smile lighting up my life...then we head off to grab something light for dinner b4 heading off to the movies chatting all the way...once the movie has ended, we hop onto my trusty motorbike and make a beeline for the night hawker center to buy supper... then we change location once again...tis time, we head towards a playground for a night time stroll and to feast on our food...we bought ice cream as we see ppl of all ages gather around and enjoy the cool peaceful night...lastly and most definitely, we will play on the swing...thus ends the happy memory both of us will share...hahahah...seems ideal to me..i know i m too old for this...but i really wan to go back once more to being a child again...enjoying the simpler things in life..to smile n to laugh without a care in the world...2molo iz juz another day of fun...and i wan to bring her along wif me...

Floating around...

Yeapz...i m floating around in the sea of events...day in day out pass by without any real meaning...now i juz continue wobbling around my path...since my weekends were so fantastic, the weekdays pale in comparison...since it iz aledi pale, when a negative event occurs, it goes pitch black...the probability of a positive event to occur iz kinda slim...considering the nature of my daily routine...there r so many things i wan to say and yet there iz always a chance that this blog will be found...and this time, the risk iz higher than it used to be...guess some things nvr do change after all this while...anyway perhaps i should concentrate on what i could say...in regards to my post in facebook, i do personally think wen one could not see anything past his/her own personal dissatisfaction regarding sumthing or sumone, tat means there iz no more turning back...there iz no more reason to accept or to comply with the source of dissatisfaction...this is not a phenomena that happens overnight...it gradually builds over a period of time...over a series of bad...or perhaps 'unfortunate' events...does luck really do factor into this i wonder...any immediate entertainment onli serves to reduce the negative feelings that iz being accumulated in the heart and iz temporary as the underlying problem does not disappear...it will soon return and the effort spent to entertain oneself might hav been gone to waste..however sometimes we will 'forget' or 'ignore' the problem as long as it iz not brought to our attention...that iz why it is not a good idea to always rely on an 'escape'...soon everything may add up and complicate things...wen we r reminded of the initial problem, we will feel overwhelmed by the current scope of everything altogether...and then we will suffer...the solution seems simple now that we hav identified a major part of how the system works but consider this....i did not factor in environmental variables...meaning outside influence to the existing problems and the system...and this iz what i currently face...and hopefully something i will solve...wen u cant beat reality, u work around it...

Another monday..

Each monday i will arrive at work feeling awake...but once u start working, the eyelids start to fall...and the yawns start...hahaha...even though weekend is for ppl to rest, but mine iz the opposite...so every monday i will suffer the consequences...today iz no different...at least i think i did some work...the weather iz still terribly hot...i dun feel like walking outside the office building at all...makes my shirt smelly wif sweat...but i dun really like the cafe food either...hahaha...anyhow moving forward, after work i decided to head towards KL Sentral to buy train tickets for my trip back ipoh during deepavali holidays...yes it is juz 3 days of rest but i seriously nid it i think...kinda like a pit stop...as the end of the year approaches, yur motivation span tends to shorten...n u wont feel like doing much...hahaha...or perhaps it iz juz me...i think it iz like the last paper of the final semester exam...compared wif the earlier papers u wont study as much for it...while in the exam hall u juz hope everything will pass quickly n smoothly....majority will b already dreaming bout their holiday plans...last time at UKM i actually saw a student carry her luggage to the exam hall...anyway back to the train trip ^^...i bought ETS tickets and it costs rm30 per trip...i think it iz worth the trip back ipoh coz the time iz right for me, 6:48pm...no nid rush from office...and will reach b4 9...so can still hav supper wif family and straight yumcha wif frens till wee hours of the morning...tis would be my fifth or sixth time...haha...the air-cond iz good and the sits r new...so...i consider it a small indulgence...kinda like going to Chili's once in a while hahaha...now that the tickets r sitting nicely in my drawer...my motivation span shortens even more...counting the days till 4th November~

End of the weekends

Ahh....the end of the weekends...one of the most dreaded moments in the week..but all things must come to an end be it good or bad...the day was spent idling around due to the muscle pain of the exercise yesterday and also the sleep debt incurred throughout the week...woke up early to breakfast and a session of Modern Warfare 2...to those uninformed, it iz a rather realistic shooting game...where u can throw knives to kill ppl like wat u see from a certain action flick more than a month ago...then juz went for lunch and back home...suddenly the unexpected happened...it actually rained for a bit...finally a brief escape from the scorching heat...how do u take full advantage of the situation? by catching up with my sleep...hahaha...even after i wake up, i dun really feel like doing anything...it was so comfortable...after tat got caught up in msn chatting n watching anime...ahh if onli days like these last forever...as i said before...i m a simple person...easy to make me happy one...make me satisfy different case though hahaha...anyway after tat there iz nothing i havent mentioned in the post yesterday...and there u hav it...a typical weekend in my life...might b boring to some...but i dun dare wish for more aledi....many things happened...out of all the lessons, i would say i learnt to b content wif wat tat iz available...though by no means i should b satisfied with it...as greed iz wat drives humanity to greater heights...improvement in quality of life...i m sure some of u would say fight for it...dun take things lying down...but occasionally u grow tired...or perhaps it really iz unbeatable...or a better question would be...why do i subject myself to such hardship? izzit worth it? wen the answer comes out as a 'No'...then tatz the time to drop the axe and think of another way...else u wud juz b wasting yur time, energy and mayb even blister yur own hand...in other words, u might get hurt...i know far too well tat wen ppl sacrifice a lot for one thing, giving up on it iz hard...it would b a 'waste'...u would keep thinking 'mayb it will change'...'mayb it will get better'....'wait longer a bit lo'....wen finally...all options r closed...then the aftermath would be disastrous...first u would b rolling on the ground disappointed...then u would b full of regret as to why u nvr see it coming in the first place..tatz why 'Friends' are important....ppl who knows of yur situation n cares for u enough would slap u till u wake up....hahaha...hmm...long time nvr went the philosophical route...but i guess tis kind of stuff iz wat all of u r waiting for eh? my daily routines muz b boring T_T...nitez everybody...

Saturday~~

What is a better way to end a good saturday than blogging about it?...erm actually there iz but give face la hahaha...still contemplating the indo mee double...mmmm...though it would negate the calories burnt this morning, the muscles built still remain right?? hahaha...tis morning woke up 7.45...though i slept at 3 the night b4, my body clock will kick start my systems around tat time...so wash up n go exercise lo...after an exhausting hour ++ of jogging n stuff, i came back satisfied...found some time to chat and left to do chores, take a bath and lunch....head back home n watched anime for a bit then came the pleasure of sleeping...though the weather iz hot, but juz the feeling of lying down wen yur whole body aches iz awesome...once the head landed on the pillow, the onli movement i can do iz roll left or right...sitting up was out of the question...i was sleepy, tired n full...woke up around an hour later wif my neck sweating...most of the time i cant sleep more than tat anyway....did some chores, bath again n dota/watch anime...life seems so meaningful now...hahaha...u may not understand tis, but after 5 days of being cubicled (iz tat a word? o_O) and stressed out, being able to do wat i want, wen i want, how i want iz heavenly...my time is used perfectly...best part was...the day haven't ended yet!!!...went dinner n ordered fatty pork using exercise as an excuse hahaha...reached home n spent time chatting n watching tv...yes la...the joy of doing pointless things...how i miss them...finally it iz already 10...time to start up dota again...some of the earlier matches ended wif defeat so was aiming to hav a convincing victory..joined a game n the host said 2v2...why not? n how epic was the battle...till now the sweet feeling of being unbeatable still swirls within me...though i still can improve (by a lot actually =_=), i m juz glad i havent lost my touch completely...well wen u dun really hav much, a victory in dota will make my day..at least will occupy me for a bit hahaha...ahh...n now i m here...n my stomach's growling...hmmm...no point ending such a beautiful day by sleeping on an empty stomach right? hehehe....guess i shud go for a midnight stroll...like how i used to do it in UKM...kinda dangerous here but...there r times wen u juz hav to toss caution to the wind right? especially for such a 'righteous cause'...FOOD HERE I COME!!!!

And the weekends are here...

I seriously am pushing myself to the limits here...itz 2.20am and i m here chatting wif a fren asking me for opinions on trying to start a life in an unknown land called KL. Indeed it iz a terrifying endeavour for us Ipoh ppl who hav nvr lived the big city life...so many things to consider, so many things to plan...so many changes to adapt to...i dun think itz easy..especially wen u try to do it alone..well which young adult does not want a shot at a better life? In Ipoh, the jobs does not pay as well and u see the news, u see the ppl, everything iz happening in KL...well itz the capital of Malaysia so there's gotta be plenty of chances for everyone to succeed...i do support that thinking..but i dun think juz about anyone can rely on those success stories of heading to the city wif nothing but a few hundred bucks and some clothes...nid proper planning de...else going to suffer...hahaha...u got nobody to rely on...perhaps a fren or 2...but yur family aint here...any problem, u face it...nobody to give advice...nobody to take care of u wen u r sick etc...well those r worst case scenario la...if u r setting out wif a group of frens for better or for worst then wouldnt be too bad ^^...if nvr quarrel la...hahaha ok lo beh tahan...approaching 3...tis post took me almost an hour coz i was bz chatting...

This is suicide final episode

Finally the *ahem* almost-suicidal days r coming to an end...sumhow i managed to pass each day without any major incidents...but wen friday comes, there is no more need to worry as saturday is here...can sleep however much i want...well my day today iz rather bland n i dun intend to start any major discussions wif my eyelids drooping...recently i hav been listening to Linkin Park's new album (Thousand Suns) at work...at first i didnt like it, due to a significant change in the way they present the songs...instead of the shouting days of Numb and In The End, u get more mellow tunes in Burning in the Skies and Robot Boy...mayb it iz to suit the theme of their lyrics..some of them r rather dark i guess...not to say depressing la...but i could relate to it...and the tunes r occasionally catchy...in a way it gets stuck in yur head...oh yeah since we got started in songs, juz earlier had a small chat wif an office colleague bout song interests...recently i havent exactly downloaded a lot of songs...but if i keep on randomly downloading, my hard disk will be full...and i dun really wan to go through the trouble of listening to each song n thinking which i will listen or wan to keep...i know each week there r new songs coming out for different languages...tis week mayb new English album, the next Japanese etc...i feel that i hav dropped a lot of my uni interests or habits..for one i dun really look for nice wallpapers anymore...perhaps my priorities changed...well it does happen frequently as u progress through the multiple stages of life...anyhow i think this should be it...2molo will b the finale and after tat the weekends...watz after tat? I repeat the process ALL OVER AGAIN...like one of the lyrics in Thousand Suns - the hardest part of ending is starting again~

This is suicide part 2

Finished weekly status meeting at 10.15, reached home, took bath, 10.50...surfed net...logged in garena n started playing at 11.35...now itz 12.30...apparently i m a masochist...err..scratch tat...letz put it tis way...i m a person tat likes to challenge my own personal limits...haha tat sounds much better...my eyes r blurry but at least my head not heavy like yesterday...got lucky yesterday n managed to sleep 7 hours...as for tonight though...doesnt look too good..haha dota nvr left my life...there was modern warfare 2, and then there was Starcraft 2...i even entered a competition for that...managed to reach quarterfinal by playing pure in a cybercafe...not bad compared to those professionals who train everyday at HOME...but in the end i came back to dota...the game was there for better or for worst...nvr fails to entertain me...especially so wen there r frens to play wif...recently started playing wif my colleagues...the daily routine doesnt seem so bad now since we chat wat happened in the previous games..as long as i dun get banned from chatting in the intranet hahaha...ok la...tis iz juz a spam post for those ppl who follow my blog...I WILL POST EVERYDAY.

This is suicide....

Even though suffering from a severe lack of sleep i still refuse to sleep...the urge to blog once more comes to nag me...and as u can see, i hav been playing wif the layout of the blog...if my head was a bit clearer i would hav explore more...but it would be a better choice to spend the last of my energy on a post...hahaha...my sleep debt steadily increases...anyway i m sure all of u hav noticed, the weather iz VERY hot nowadays...it does not help that my room is one of those spare rooms near the kitchen with an INDOOR window...tat means poor air circulation...the mosquitoes are back in full force...juz yesterday i was part of an involuntary blood donation campaign...and itz the first time i had to use the electric insect repellent device after staying here for more than a year...if u think things wont get worst, haha u thought wrong. My job is a demanding one...requires full concentration and utilizes a lot of thinking power to go through my daily responsibilities...it also strains my eyes terribly...or perhaps itz juz me...i wouldnt know...the way i see it, my colleagues are superhuman...to go through every line, to think of all possible results or methods...and to perform tasks with minimal or if possible, zero errors...i m actually risking my neck here by divulging all this but i nvr said wat i m working as explicitly nor did i mention where i am working...so shud b fine...if u r wondering, yes, the company goes through facebook, youtube and any public opinion outlets to identify anyone trying to smear itz reputation...well i guess tat iz standard practice for companies with tat kind of resource...anyway i think i shud log off now...12:10am...2molo got meeting summore...yes...tis is mental suicide...my brains would b toast but my body still active...hahaha

Almost 1 year later...

Here i am once again...almost 1 year later from my last post...guess my days of blogging are really over...or i juz dun wan to get back into the mood anymore...though oftentimes u can find the effects of blogging really helps u get through the darkest patches of yur life...especially wen u cant talk to anyone or wen ppl juz dun understand u...to me a blog really acts like a diary...all my inner thoughts and emotions r poured into it...rather different from most ppl ^^...i m not implying anything here but guess i m kinda old fashioned in this case...i am traditional in a lot of other aspects of life...not necessarily a bad thing...double-edged sword i would say...anyway back to wat tat has been happening in my life so far...i m still working in the same company since my last blog entry ^^...a rather successful endeavour if i may say so myself...here i learnt a lot of things about the corporate life...i m still not tat good at handling it juz yet, but i m VERY different from the guy u knew a year ago...not onli tat, i gained weight...it is saddening but i am now barely a shadow of the super runner with messy hair...i cant even run 3km...well my toe was injured but tat cannot be an excuse!!...and i am straying away from topic again =_=....and since i m still working at the same company, i am still staying at the same house...hahaha...well nothing has really changed in this aspect of my life...social life to b precise...i still occasionally wander off to the cc and stare at ppl playing...hav dinner on my own most of the time...other than tat, stuck in my room facebook/msn or anime marathon...seriously there iz barely any change from my days in ukm...in fact it might hav gotten worst...no i dun plan to elaborate on it as it may be too depressing for everyone...i think tatz the problem wif my blog....first of all itz all dark n gloomy wif few pictures...then my posts may point towards the dark side...well like i said earlier, itz my diary...however tis diary iz not tat personal anymore...as i did a seriously bad mistake...might elaborate more on it wen the time comes...if i still remember...a better question would be if i will post another entry ><...however, blogging iz addicting...i m sure some ppl who hav read my posts since Friendster blog days would know that i was once addicted to it...well i guess most of u here wouldnt know bout it now would u? go read it wen u got the time...i duno if it iz still there or not..i m not ashamed bout the events there anymore....those were events 4-5 years ago...but hey...if u do, u might find some similarities with this blog here...yeah itz set in the same gloomy tone...but at least the background is bright~~ was it? anyhow tatz all for my status update tis time...but there iz no way u can squeeze 10 months of events into one post now iz there...mmmm....mayb i will continue 2molo....