Magnificent May

Wonder if I can come up with adjectives for each month. May has been a very eventful month for me. And I guess if you have been reading the new in Malaysia, for everyone as well. But that is not what I want to talk about. First of all, I am here to offer my sincerest apologies. I have failed a good friend of mine. It is with great regret that I could not attend your wedding. I have thoughts of having a toast with you, as you march forward into the next phase of your life. I would have liked to catch up with friends and enjoy a hearty meal. However, it is simply not meant to be. I have vowed to always try not to miss any once in a lifetime event and thus, I have failed myself as well. For the first time, I can say with a stern voice, I did not miss it just because I want to skip on red packet money. I hope you understand at least that.

Anyway without further ado, a picture of my current physical appearance.

As you can see I have gained significant mass on my upper body but my stomach is getting flabby as well. The bulk up formula I devised myself is working too well I suppose. Tomorrow onwards I will make some changes to my current routine but not my diet. Seems like introducing more carbs is the right way to go. My daily cost of eating has almost doubled if you compare with last year. Of course I do not simply throw everything into my mouth and that explains the increase in cost, as I try to get good food. I still have much to fix in my diet. If I am to get my increment, I need to buy a new pair of shoes, workout gloves and a toss up between multivitamins and protein powder. Though for overall gains, I would say multivitamins are a better bet.

In regards to my increment, I have receive no news. It is kind of disappointing but at least there is no announcement about increment being cancelled for this year. At least not yet. But the delay is close to unbearable. Honestly I have been seriously considering my options for quite some time. Furthermore, I received news about more and more colleagues leaving the company. I guess the situation of the company is painfully obvious to everyone. Not only that, it is only logical that we will have severe hardship in recruiting new employees as well. It is rather interesting to discuss about what may happen. If no increment, things will only for further downhill. But an increment will put a lot of strain into company resources.

This month also marks another financial breakdown on my part. I have seriously lost it. I started buying stuff as I cannot torture myself any longer. The daily routine is not doing any good in easing the pain so I have to take severe measures. Of course some stuff is long overdue but it is not necessary to spend so much on it. I think it will not come back to haunt me since I have that much spare margin in my savings but this is not the proper way of living. A few more months of this insanity and I will burn everything. As I may have mentioned before I stopped saving since a few months back. I am very uncomfortable with this but I want to try living without such a heavy financial burden on my back. Perhaps it is too liberating. Anyhow this post has gone on long enough. Hope good fortune will find you in the coming month. Live long and prosper.