This is suicide part 2

Finished weekly status meeting at 10.15, reached home, took bath, 10.50...surfed net...logged in garena n started playing at 11.35...now itz 12.30...apparently i m a masochist...err..scratch tat...letz put it tis way...i m a person tat likes to challenge my own personal limits...haha tat sounds much better...my eyes r blurry but at least my head not heavy like yesterday...got lucky yesterday n managed to sleep 7 hours...as for tonight though...doesnt look too good..haha dota nvr left my life...there was modern warfare 2, and then there was Starcraft 2...i even entered a competition for that...managed to reach quarterfinal by playing pure in a cybercafe...not bad compared to those professionals who train everyday at HOME...but in the end i came back to dota...the game was there for better or for worst...nvr fails to entertain me...especially so wen there r frens to play wif...recently started playing wif my colleagues...the daily routine doesnt seem so bad now since we chat wat happened in the previous games..as long as i dun get banned from chatting in the intranet hahaha...ok la...tis iz juz a spam post for those ppl who follow my blog...I WILL POST EVERYDAY.

This is suicide....

Even though suffering from a severe lack of sleep i still refuse to sleep...the urge to blog once more comes to nag me...and as u can see, i hav been playing wif the layout of the blog...if my head was a bit clearer i would hav explore more...but it would be a better choice to spend the last of my energy on a post...hahaha...my sleep debt steadily increases...anyway i m sure all of u hav noticed, the weather iz VERY hot nowadays...it does not help that my room is one of those spare rooms near the kitchen with an INDOOR window...tat means poor air circulation...the mosquitoes are back in full force...juz yesterday i was part of an involuntary blood donation campaign...and itz the first time i had to use the electric insect repellent device after staying here for more than a year...if u think things wont get worst, haha u thought wrong. My job is a demanding one...requires full concentration and utilizes a lot of thinking power to go through my daily responsibilities...it also strains my eyes terribly...or perhaps itz juz me...i wouldnt know...the way i see it, my colleagues are superhuman...to go through every line, to think of all possible results or methods...and to perform tasks with minimal or if possible, zero errors...i m actually risking my neck here by divulging all this but i nvr said wat i m working as explicitly nor did i mention where i am working...so shud b fine...if u r wondering, yes, the company goes through facebook, youtube and any public opinion outlets to identify anyone trying to smear itz reputation...well i guess tat iz standard practice for companies with tat kind of resource...anyway i think i shud log off now...12:10am...2molo got meeting summore...yes...tis is mental suicide...my brains would b toast but my body still active...hahaha

Almost 1 year later...

Here i am once again...almost 1 year later from my last post...guess my days of blogging are really over...or i juz dun wan to get back into the mood anymore...though oftentimes u can find the effects of blogging really helps u get through the darkest patches of yur life...especially wen u cant talk to anyone or wen ppl juz dun understand u...to me a blog really acts like a diary...all my inner thoughts and emotions r poured into it...rather different from most ppl ^^...i m not implying anything here but guess i m kinda old fashioned in this case...i am traditional in a lot of other aspects of life...not necessarily a bad thing...double-edged sword i would say...anyway back to wat tat has been happening in my life so far...i m still working in the same company since my last blog entry ^^...a rather successful endeavour if i may say so myself...here i learnt a lot of things about the corporate life...i m still not tat good at handling it juz yet, but i m VERY different from the guy u knew a year ago...not onli tat, i gained weight...it is saddening but i am now barely a shadow of the super runner with messy hair...i cant even run 3km...well my toe was injured but tat cannot be an excuse!!...and i am straying away from topic again =_=....and since i m still working at the same company, i am still staying at the same house...hahaha...well nothing has really changed in this aspect of my life...social life to b precise...i still occasionally wander off to the cc and stare at ppl playing...hav dinner on my own most of the time...other than tat, stuck in my room facebook/msn or anime marathon...seriously there iz barely any change from my days in ukm...in fact it might hav gotten worst...no i dun plan to elaborate on it as it may be too depressing for everyone...i think tatz the problem wif my blog....first of all itz all dark n gloomy wif few pictures...then my posts may point towards the dark side...well like i said earlier, itz my diary...however tis diary iz not tat personal anymore...as i did a seriously bad mistake...might elaborate more on it wen the time comes...if i still remember...a better question would be if i will post another entry ><...however, blogging iz addicting...i m sure some ppl who hav read my posts since Friendster blog days would know that i was once addicted to it...well i guess most of u here wouldnt know bout it now would u? go read it wen u got the time...i duno if it iz still there or not..i m not ashamed bout the events there anymore....those were events 4-5 years ago...but hey...if u do, u might find some similarities with this blog here...yeah itz set in the same gloomy tone...but at least the background is bright~~ was it? anyhow tatz all for my status update tis time...but there iz no way u can squeeze 10 months of events into one post now iz there...mmmm....mayb i will continue 2molo....