Room cooked food!

I am proud to report finally I have managed to cook a complete meal by myself. After thinking for a while, I decided to buy a pack of brown rice to try out. It came out a bit burnt instead but it is soft like normal rice. There is little to no taste at all though. Nothing a little bit of pepper can't solve. As you can see from the picture above, I have a piece of steamed chicken and some greens with cream cheese. This is as healthy as healthy could get. I should add in an egg though. On another note, I look flabby. I know it is hard to look slim while sitting down but then, I do wish my stomach is firmer. Holding my breath does not help things. It only sucks in the cavity around the chest not at the lower abdomen. I still have a long way to go. Today I read an article regarding body-building and I guess this is as much as I can manage without gym and supplements. Slowly but surely I will come to accept that this is as far as I can go. But before I give up completely, I will still keep up my routine as a healthy lifestyle investment as long as possible. I think I am above average already. And I intend to stay that way, for the sake of my self-confidence as well as my health.

As you may have noticed, I have fiddled with my blog layout as well as added annoying background music simply because it is awesome. I was toying with the thought of actually taking blogging to a serious level but what can I blog about? Of course it should be a commercial topic since not everyone likes to read the personal thoughts of a complete stranger. I am no food expert nor do I have a good camera to capture images. I can't talk about K-pop either since there should be a gazillion blogs out there dedicated to the same thing. So I guess it should remain as it is. I will be tinkering with my blog from time to time out of self interest. You never know what might happen. Anyway the reason for my sudden free time is because this week I totally abstained from hanging out at the cybercafe. Even though cheap but the frequency of my visits are taking its toll on my wallet and generally my future finances. I have been exploring things to do with my time but most of it are spur of the moment kind of stuff, nothing solid. Sadly, I have yet to start studying my Korean. I did manage to get a chunk of office work done so tomorrow should be a bit open. Being able to work at home is awesome.

I intend to sleep early tonight since I couldn't take a nap in the afternoon. Even though I feel tired but my thoughts wander around when I tried to sleep. I guess it is simply my eyes being tired of staring at the screen whole day. It is no different from a normal weekday. Nevertheless I will provide my body with ample rest so that I will recover perfectly for my workout tomorrow. Referring back to the article I read, I cannot really measure the distance between workout intensity since I have never touched gym equipment but I know for sure the diet is very different. The meals I can still emulate but the amount of supplements that guy consumes is very very amazing. I am actually surprised you need that much to pump and maintain your body at that level. I always thought I simply lack the whey protein but in fact it was much more than that. Hopefully at the very least I will be able to cut out more fat from my body even though I will not end up very muscular. That is my main goal. I am actually trying very hard already considering my extremities are skinny. Maybe my body clings to the last bunch of fat around my abdomen since I do not eat that much anymore. I will need another month to find out. That's all, take care and good day~

Updates and questions

I was getting bored sitting in my room and so I find myself here again. Sorry that I still haven't update my Facebook display picture. Pretty lazy lately. For the previous week I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep due to mosquitoes or midnight toilet breaks. My work performance dwindled severely on Thursday as I stayed up late to catch a health show repeat. I couldn't even think properly as my thoughts scatter. I jump straight into bed right after work, waking up in time for dinner. Never underestimate the call for food. Thankfully, since I decided to stop going to cybercafe completely, I have been able to catch up with sleep today. I am not fully recovered yet since I still yawn in the middle of day and that is what Sunday's are for. I think 2 day's worth of rest and relaxation should be enough to reset my brain in preparation for the coming week. My project's deadline is approaching fast. Furthermore, I think the reason my muscle development hit a plateau is due to lack of quality rest as well. Hopefully, I will be able to perform better during my exercise sessions to maximize my gains. Judging from my own observation, there is little growth but more towards firming the entire frame. Maybe I should try bulking up but it may look horrible.

I have been thinking lately, what is in a name? To the Chinese, a name usually consists of the family name and followed by meaningful characters. For me, it simply means 'respect' and 'glory' or 'pride'. My brother's name is actually paired with mine as his middle name means 'ancestor'. So my parents hope both of us will be filial and honour our lineage and ancestry. However, if you put mine together it means I respect glory. Indeed I do. I respect high-achievers, people who are capable or skilful in their field. But it is does not mean everything to me. It simply is something that I value more than other aspects of a person. More on this later, better finish up this segment first. Some western countries do not share the same opinion on a name though. To them a name is only something to call someone with. It does not specifically need any meaning whatsoever. It is a fact that common names nowadays are based off terms from Latin or other languages but to the common man, there is no meaning. Of course a person does not become a criminal by simply having a negative term in his or her name. It is a general rule that every parent would like their offspring to do well in life and lead a meaningful existence so usually all names are positive.


About wealth, I have negative opinions of people with wealth. Most of them that I have met spends money easily. Of course they are allowed to do that because it is their money. But that does not mean I can do the same. When I try to explain, they just look at me like I am lying about my financial situation. How thick can they be? Call me naive, but come over and prove me wrong. Call me bitter or jealous but I also dislike people who buy things simply because it is the trend and defies all common sense. How come they could do that whereas people with better money sense are stuck with pennies? I know I have been visiting this topic very frequently but such is the frequency that I bump into people like that. They do not share the same definition of money as the people who needs it. The view and perspective are totally different. To have financial freedom and stability is a luxury. If I have it, I would have joined people for a trip to Korea. I would have joined people for concerts and outings. But my income is not as strong as it is supposed to be. People ask me to invest but I do not have that much to begin with. I am much too afraid to try with whatever little amount that I have right now. Most probably I will still be riding my motorcycle for quite some time.

Last question, I seriously do not understand how a person can switch partners so quickly while others stay single for much longer. I do not remember if I have visited this topic before but it is something I have always been curious about. I always wonder how does a person manage to get a new partner in less than 3 months after the break up. Is it an underground affair all this while? Or fate is really that efficient? Is the previous relationship worth nothing? At least to me, it reflects rather badly to the person. Of course if the couple ends up happily ever after I will eat my words but I have seen people jumping from one to another for a few times. Do they never learn? Or I am simply thinking too much? What about those that did not enter a relationship for a long time after a break up? Are they still hoping to get back together? Is the trauma so great that you do not believe in another member of the opposite sex anymore? Playing it safe and decided not to rush things? I do understand there is no right and wrong in the matter of love nor is there a measuring standard that applies to all. This is simply the opinion of an observer with no personal relationship experience whatsoever. So you can disregard everything I have said or just sit down and look at the people around you. Do not get me started on couples that marry early. That's it for now, I hope it has been a thought-provoking read.

The decision to change

Well my current thoughts are a bit too much to compile into a sentence for Facebook so I guess a very short post is in order. This is my blog so I do have the right to do whatever I want. Finally I have deleted the people I mentioned in my previous post. I hope they do not mind and I actually gave one last try to at least know why I was isolated in the first place. Maybe they never thought of it that way, maybe I was overthinking things but I know that I didn't even deserve an answer. Perhaps I have always been the weird dude or the unapproachable depressed guy. I never got a second chance to prove myself a better person. Hopefully I won't be making the same mistakes with the rest of my friends or what is left of the pool. Safest approach would be to keep them at a distance but that is not a healthy friendship I guess. Well the first step would be to actually find people to relate with. Or change my display picture in Facebook. I think I will do that soonest possible.

I have also decided to stop my cybercafe adventures. After much procrastination, I will start on those online Korean lessons. I honestly need something to stimulate my brain and to stop draining my financial resources. I guess that is all for personal changes. The later half of the year should be much more interesting with developments on all the different fronts. By next month, I vow to grab a pair of running shoes and start running again. Currently I am doing strength training in my room 3 days of the week and I guess I will sneak in the running every other day. I will stop with leg training and rely purely on the burn from running. Pure strength is actually great if you want to lose weight and build muscles but it does nothing for cardiovascular health or stamina. What use is a properly toned pair of legs when it couldn't carry you 10 or even 5km? Guys with muscles but without cardio are at risk of suffering a heart attack just like any other guy. Like I said, I have always been searching for an overall healthy approach. Speaking of health, I think I should go sleep now.