Chores....

Haha dun ask me bout the title of the post...i juz simply put watever tat is in my head currently...now i got a ton of clothes waiting for me to hang and wash...i oso nid to cut my nails...itz 11 + now...i oso wan to watch anime n brush my teeth...however against my better judgement, i decided to chat in msn n blog...earlier i went to cc again for Black Ops...it is estimated i will finally prestige 2molo...almost level 49 de...level 50 is the cap..but sometimes the lag iz kinda bad...the performance today was one of the worst i would say...not much highlights...lost a lot of matches...i did add the last video in the theatre...one of those capture the flag games wif a superb revolver section and the final section involving me wif a minigun....yeap seriously a minigun...it was epic..surprisingly it iz kinda accurate...having 500 bullets in the chamber helps a lot against waves of enemies...2molo iz finally thursday...inching closer n closer to the end of the week...and wif tat november will draw to a close...next would be december....and then it will be the end of 2010...wat a roller-coaster year..i hav gained a lot from this year of living n working at KL...enuf to stop me from regretting how tis year was spent...actually there is never a wasted year...it depends on how u view things...perhaps tis iz juz a way for me to protect myself...by switching the view...hahaha...not sure la...i still feel sumthing iz missing from my life...some ppl afraid they will miss it so they stand at the same place looking patiently n carefully...i prefer to walk as i search...itz not so boring...hahaha...if i walk around at least i feel i m making progress though i m juz walking in circles...dammit i m starting to talk crap...hahaha...ok la...b4 i make myself more confused i better stop...nitez everyone...

Another night out

Finally tonight i get to play COD Black Ops multiplayer again...damn the game iz addictive...it is bad i think...most prob i will slow down wen i reach max level...not sure...i m aledi quite familiar wif some maps...some of the others require more exploration of the small roads...but general direction iz a bit clear liao...today i won 2 FFA matches~~ FFA means Free For All...out of 15 players i emerge victorious...clearly it is a blend of luck n skill..hahaha...i started out wif a lousy game summore...luckily i got warmer as i continued playing...mmmm...tis iz such a far cry from my daily life...cant blame me for being addicted to it i guess...in the game i carry the name fobseugene (dun ask me why) and i m a strong player in the Adelaide servers...currently level 46...a huge ego boost for me...back in real life, i m juz a nobody wif a rather full figure n long hair wearing specs...got no money and not much life either...juz another person in the background...but i will not give up juz like tis...one day things will change...ok la...nothing much to say 2nite...2molo might hav meeting at night so nid to sleep early..nitez everyone...

So little time...

Zombie monday iz over hahaha....seriously man...every monday iz almost the same for me...i sleep less on weekends than on weekdays =_=...n i sit bside my team lead as well...i m not the kind who enjoys sitting in front of the classroom de...but well i hav aledi sat in tat place for 1 year plus..anyway today i dun wana talk bout work anymore...will focus more on the title of the post...so little time indeed...i would think all of u hav a lot of things u wanted to do right now...well things like going for a holiday does not count in this case..i mean in the immediate timeframe..for example perhaps some of u might b thinking bout going yumcha, playing a game, watching a book or catching up on a drama...all at the same time!!...so u nid to choose one...i face such a crossroad everynight...seriously i got a lot of things to do..all equal in 'value' as the other i would say...arggh...n i was sidetracked for half an hour chatting wif my fren...lol...guess i shud keep it short...else i would end up the same tomorrow...sleep iz very important...but i wan to watch anime now...sigh...see wat i mean? too little time...so many things to do...

Ahhh...sleep..

I think most of us still in our youth do not like to sleep..but sleep iz such a luxury that some of us indulge in it wenever they hav the time...i for one, especially now...do not want to sleep...but we r built to require sleep..so i cant go against nature...well i could but it would end terribly for me hahaha...today iz Sunday..such a rollercoaster day...perhaps it iz due to me suffering from lack of sleep tat my emotions sway wif such abandon...at one point i was thinking if i died, would anyone actually hav anything to say in my funeral? do i really hav good frens tat understand me? tat could do me justice wen describing me etc etc?? plz dun ask wat brought upon such thoughts...but yeah basically i was wondering do ppl understand me...or perhaps i m making myself hard to b understood by others?? not so sure...i always try to understand n accomodate others though...but does not always work out anyway =_=...then at one point...well not exactly a high but then i managed to score a win in FFA COD Black Ops...it iz an achievement bcoz i m competing wif around 15 others as king of the map..i m oso suffering from lag...stroke of luck i guess...other than tat i m quite bored wif how the day turned out really...too much Black Ops? dun think so..but perhaps i realize how much it iz draining me tat i start to doubt things...well it iz fun to charge ahead wif reckless abandon but sumtimes nid to slow down n take a look around and wat my charging iz doing to the things around me as well...hmm see how it goes la...i think tatz all from me now...no nid to b concerned la..i wont think bout suicide or stuff...but death happens everyday u know? it juz pass through my mind...nothing more~ rest assured i will try my best to stay alive until i can run away no more hahaha...wish me luck then....nitez everyone

Nothing much to say..

For the post today, i dun really hav much to say...well today iz actually a 'real' weekend after quite some time...finally can get some rest...not exactly rest i would say...juz ESP...eat, sleep, play hahaha...even now i m suffering from a severe lack of sleep...but my body does not listen...hmmm...i guess tatz the wrong way to put it...coz i m not exactly asking my body to shut down now either hahaha...juz finished watching an anime...i like some of the phrases used...tatz one of the reasons why i like to watch anime...it goes sumthing like this...'Just because it is cliche, it means that it is commonplace among all of us. Is it wrong to chase after happy endings?'...the first part rings better...a real nice comeback to ppl who thinks we r cliche...but like the guy said...it is also because it is cliche tat means it iz common n perhaps accepted among the general public hahaha...n it iz not wrong to chase after happy endings no matter how lame or plain it is...tomolo iz going to b sunday..another day of gaming...Call of Duty : Black Ops seriously rocks...i m spending a lot on it daily =_=...hopefully my finances can last till end of the year...wait...screw tat...hope my finances can last FOREVER...hahaha...oh yeah i posted a new replay in the COD account...look for fobseugene theatre....'Get to the choppa!'...nitez everyone

End of project~

Today marks the end of the project i m currently working on~~ Tis week iz rather hectic but i m juz thankful tat the stuff is settled..now juz nid to wait for reply from the client...sure got changes...anyway even though i would like to say i can now relax at work, but the truth iz the work never stops...sumhow sumwhere there iz going to b sumthing for me to do...truly iz a job for workaholics...i juz go wif the flow i guess...2day juz had another round of COD Black Ops!! The game iz really addictive...wonder how much more my finances can stand the strain ><...but the year iz going to end!!...hopefully i will get my bonus tis time hahaha...ok la...back to the main story...onwards to the last day of TeenFest 2k10...actually by now i m kinda blur aledi...almost been a week...some parts r still fresh in my mind...well morning started uneventfully wif all of us getting ready for the last day..oh yeah the night b4, during dinner at Carl's Jr i made a declaration tat i will take a picture wif the girls!! so i set off hoping i could actually pull it off =_=...went for bfast at KimGary...hahaha i like the american breakfast there...cheap n tasty...better than mcD at least...after tat we headed over to our booth to start setting up everything...but mornings r usually slow..2day iz no different...therefore i went to check out Sony booth...and behold~ the Super Street Fighter 4 iz available to play!! The day before it was packed full of ppl lining up to play...i actually saw a person bringing dedicated joystick to play...yeah those big arcade simulator joysticks...either he iz really passionate or well he juz hav the money to afford stuff like tat hahaha...so i headed over to call my fren to play...at first i can still fight...but later i m hanging on the losing end...haiz...well i nvr really had much experience playing the game...so i cant really use any super moves or anything...juz simple punch/kick combos...either i m suffering from lack of sleep or itz juz me being bitter bout having a disadvantage....my fren celebrating his victories does not really help either...so i stopped playing b4 i did anything i will regret for the rest of my life...then i walked off to cool down...saw a colleague...chatted a bit n returned to my usual groove...oh yeah did i mentioned there iz a booth selling toy helicopters? they really can fly...hahaha...my fren bought one...anyway the rest of the day iz pretty routine...one of the showgirl's boyfren came around to hang out...decent guy...but we were planning to destroy him the night earlier after finding out he iz the boyfren...finally closing time approaches...as i was playing, one of the show girls approached n watch from behind..my highlight of the weekend has come~~...actually she was juz interested in the Starcraft 2 dedicated gear we are showcasing..and i was playing tat time...managed to strike a short conversation n found out she play Starcraft....my eyes lit up...i think...but then i caught a glimpse of the handphone she iz using to take the pictures...got bf liao...power level suddenly crashed...oh yeah...forgot to mention...i think it was the day earlier...or was it the last day itself, another girl played CounterStrike Online and me and my fren double-teamed to make fun of her...tat was oso a highlight...and she iz the one attached to the guy who frequent our booth...confusing? no worries...itz not important...haahhaa...now back to SC girl...while closing time most of us came around n joke n talked...n sumhow my fren asked SC girl to take a pic wif me...i was embarassed to say the least...i aledi given up on my wish to take pics wif the girls there...since it will onli b more painful...but i shouldnt reject it either..so my brain froze and struck a dumb looking pose...took the pic and i thanked her...felt like an idiot and probably it was true =_=...this is one of those moments wen i hate myself...i bet u would slap me too...thank god the ppl there could refrain...hahaha...well tat was it i guess...after tat we took a group picture...and then packed up everything n had sushi for dinner~~ they dropped me at home...i tried not to focus on reality at tat time...seriously man...tis will nvr happen again...even though i come again for TeenFest 2k11, the ppl will b different the circumstances will be different...TeenFest 2k10 onli happens in 2010...tatz it everyone...show iz over...and thus i end my blog post...hope u all enjoyed my recollection of the 3 days...not too boring...not too interesting either eh?? but tis iz MY blog...so i will write watever i wan to write...well as long as it doesnt hurt me or the ppl i know...tat iz veli important...nid to remind myself from time to time too...u guys wan pictures? go check out FOBS page in faceebook plz...thank you ^^ nitez~

On hold~

The last bit of the story will hav to wait longer...hahaha...kinda tired today...not a very good day either...frankly speaking, the day sucked...couldnt perform well at work...i think i look like a noob...i duno...cant really put my feelings into words...perhaps wat my fren say earlier iz more accurate...i do not feel satisfied at my work at all...but i cant do any better anyhow...helplessness? i m not sure...juz hav a bitter feeling in my mouth...well at least 2molo iz friday...after tat, it will be the weekends...hopefully things will go smooth tomorrow...but reality hav a tendency to land a sucker punch wen u least expect it...i guess tatz why itz called a sucker punch...hahahaha...ok la i wan to sleep liao...at least i know i wont wake up still feeling down like right now...wonder if i will hav a nice dream...though i seldom dream anything most of the time..perhaps i forgot bout most of it...hmmmm....daydream a lot though...^^

Another stop~

Sorry everyone...i screwed up my schedule today...so i cant spend time blogging too much...itz 7 minutes till 1am and i nid to go work 2molo...got things to rush too...haiz...anyway finally a break iz very good..i hav been heading off to events for the past 2 weekends that i do not hav time to idle around...or shud i say having the freedom to do watever i wan wenever i wan...quite a lot of stuff to catch up...anyway nothing much to highlight today...played COD: Black Ops again lo...lvl 20++ liao...managed to get top 5 in Team Deathmatch with ease..most ppl r criticizing the game for devolving into a trigger-finger kind of game...but isnt that how ppl win a gunfight normally? u can still camp or snipe from afar if yur reflexes are not quick enuf hahaha...but to each their own i suppose...anyway tatz all for now...i m so going to die tomorrow =_=

Holiday~~

Finally a day of rest...hahaha after 2 weekends of frantic fun, hopefully 2molo will b a day of rest..as u may notice, i m blogging quite late into the night...well tis iz bcoz i was occupied wif COD : Black Ops at the cc for 4 hours earlier hahaha....currently at lvl14 i think...i only played it for 2 hours actually..the other 2 iz spent on various other stuff...b4 i continue the story yesterday, juz a short update on my day...started routinely enuf but towards the end it gets hectic...trying to meet a tight deadline...i will try my best...other than tat i heard some interesting gossip...but it may just end up as gossip...i m not at liberty to discuss it here as it iz kinda serious but if it turns out to b true, then the new year will start wif a bang!!..some of u may b able to predict wat i mean aledi...ok then back to the second day...woke up and proceeded to pick up my laundry before getting ready to depart wif my fren to MidValley for the second day of TeenFest 2k10...it was a bit late as he got sumthing to take care of and we ended up having breakfast near my place...once we reached, it seems tat we r not too late nor too early...everyone seemed to hav juz arrived and iz bz setting up their booths...we too waste no time and proceeded to do the same....and then the girls came in...what a breathtaking sight...as some of u may know, i hav been trying to put tis kind of stuff at the sidelines for a while de...if u wan a definite answer as to why....i cant really put my finger on it...anyway being in close proximity with pretty girls tend to stir any guy i think...i try to pay no heed and proceeded to act cool...which iz sumthing i will regret later on...well the day pass by quickly enuf...managed to mingle around and sample Playstation Move at the Sony booth as well...played a whole bunch of Starcraft 2 games...some of the players who lost even swear...it was amusing to say the least...i oso managed to play some Starcraft 2 custom games...some of them quite addictive...wen i mentioned mingle earlier, more or less i juz butt in into the chit-chat my fren n his partner had with the girls...perhaps a bit rude but well it was good fun...i particularly appreciate the reaction from one of them...more sporty n outgoing...but still not the best yet...sometimes i wonder...if reality threw both of them at me i dun really know wat to do...in anycase it would hav been better than how it iz now...wen i cant even choose at all =_=...anyway like i mentioned in countless blog posts or facebook posts or yumcha sessions wif frenz....nothing could win me over more easily than a sweet smile on a pretty face...i tend to focus more on the face than the body...hey now, no dirty thoughts k? hahaha...as i mentioned in the previous post, it would b disgusting and an insult to them...appreciating their beauty iz a different thing altogether...back to the main topic...after the stuff iz over, i headed to get movie tickets for Red tat night...then we had our dinner at Carl's Jr...their burger rocks!!...my fren and his partner liked it...i m glad i didnt introduce sumthing tat does not fit their tastes...the movie was epic fun...i dun think i nid to write the review here for i m sure u guys can read bout it elsewhere...after the movie, even when we reached our hotel, we still keep on talking bout the quotes and the interesting scenes....at the hotel we juz took our bath and relaxed by watching some tv...and tat iz the end of the second day....hope u guyz enjoy reading it...i m very tired right now....itz aledi 2:30am..nitez everyone...

More updates...

Yesterday i was blogging half-awake....couldnt include all the minor details haha...today i think can consider i m blogging 3/4 awake la...hahaha...hopefully by tomolo i will recover more...anyway before i turn back time, a short status report...i still feel washed out today...the usual routine lo...wake up aledi feel sien...thinking wat to do for work la, nid to face work issues la, wonder wat kind of shit will pop up la...all negative thoughts...furthermore their images are still fresh in my mind...it does not help tat i hav an active mind...dun misunderstand, i m not the kind to imagine x-rated crap towards ppl tat i respect and admire...tat would be disgusting and an insult to those ppl..halfway through the day, my fren actually sms me...i tot it muz b sumthing urgent or sum news but it was juz a greeting =_=...hahaha nvr actually expected it...but it was a good change of pace...however late afternoon was tedious as usual...cant stay awake for long periods of time...eventually i persevered to go back home around 6.45...it was raining though....got soaked...luckily dun feel like faling sick haha...so back to those 2 days of mayhem...actually 3 la but friday night does not count since i onli reach there around 7pm...i was lucky to find a taxi willing to take me there...the taxi driver oso knew an illegal shortcut haha...anyway once i reached the destination, nothing can hide my amazement...i dun think i hav ever seen a place like TeenFest 2k10 before...however, i managed to keep my jaw from dropping down on the floor and made a beeline for my fren's booth...once there, despite my best efforts, my jaw came crashing down n rolled round the floor....as i scrambled to pick it back up and regained my composure, i saw my fren n chatted a bit...the girls were awesome hahaha....since the events stop at around 9, i decided to take a walk round the whole place...the sony playstation booth iz juz behind my fren's booth...got demo sets for Playstation Move as well..it iz a good chance to get a feel of the next gen motion capture tech...saw a guy cosplaying as Captain Jack Sparrow...as i grinned amused i checked out most of the other booths...tis iz one heck of an exhibition...time passes quickly and i made my way back to the booth for a game of Starcraft 2...then i helped them pack up and headed off to find their budget hotel...the place iz kinda nice though the bathroom iz kinda ermm...narrow i guess...once everything iz settled, we went to search for food...contacted what my fren claimed as the 'Human GPS' and sure enough he brought us to the best original 'pan mee' stall known to him...it tastes great!!..it iz along Old Klang Road...sorry i cant provide better directions but i wasnt paying much attention to the surroundings hahaha...after the dinner, they ferried me back home and i pack up in preparation for the next day...therefore tis ends my blog post for today...i will continue 2molo...my vision iz starting to blur...seriously...hahaha...nitez guyz

1 week + later

Here i am blogging again...1 week + later...sorry for not blogging so long...i m too exhausted wif my work and my life right now...but seriously i hav a lot of things i wana spill out today...it iz juz kinda overwhelming...but i guess it iz in a good way...so let me continue from my last post ok?? dun worry...all of them will juz b summary of what happened hahaha...so my last post was for friday, first day of pc expo midvalley...well the second n third days are not very exceptional though...kinda the same...one of the few highlights would b eating haagen dasz ice cream again, found ppl who r rude and also managed to chat up some girls which iz an accomplishment for me hahaha....ok la not 'some' la...can count wif one hand de =_=...about the rude ppl well...i guess they were born tat way? but still, now i understand how those promoters feel wen we ignore them as they try to give us brochures...at least wave or smile a bit la...however, i do admit some promoters go overboard wif their actions...well there r 2 sides to a coin...those few days were short but sweet...a much needed change from my daily routine...however all good things muz come to an end...and what a depressing ending it was...i was feeling veli down the next day n veli tired as well..hmmm...the highlight for my working week would juz be the appraisal i guess...the other days were kinda routine...nothing new...so the annual appraisal iz over wif me getting a 'Meet Expectations' rating...so i m entitled to some goodies i hope ^^...some ppl even gotten Exceed...though i shud b glad wif my own rating, cant help but b curious n envious of other ppl...well it iz over de...i feel like i won the war wif a hollow victory...it was a given victory, not a hard-fought one...the manager was juz hoping i would give enuf reason to justify the rating...i think he aledi had plans for all of us...so my arguments mostly are void but juz to let me voice out stuff...anyway onwards to the juicy part...tis weekend i attended TeenFest 2k10...wif me fren again no less hahaha...he got a booth there again...however there iz a significant difference wif all my previous experience...there were 5 show girls...well if the term 'show girl' iz an insult to you beauties then might as well say there were 5 pretty girls stationed at our booth which iz a segment of the big Razer booth...seriously epic wei...ok la perhaps not to u guys out there but for sum1 like me, it was eye-popping indeed...but well...wen i reach tis part of the story i juz suddenly feel like stopping...dun really feel like talking bout it...i really feel useless though...i mean i know i wan it, my fren knew i wan it n yet i juz stepped back...unable to come out from my comfort zone...i suck wei...i m onli good at stuff tat does not matter...thank god for the short moments i could enjoy talking to those pretty girls though...and cant miss out thanking my fren and his company (FOBS - look for it in facebook!! ALL THE PICS ARE THERE!!!!) for chances like tis...as for why i decided to show a name? well juz think of it as a way for me to rebel against everything tat drag me down...i duno if i will regret tis but hell...i dun really care anymore haha...and yet the lyrics are stuck in mind...'so don't apologize, i m losing what i don't deserve'...i know i deserve none of u yet...i cannot blame anyone but myself...but seriously...thanx for juz talking to me...thank you all!!! and good nite. oh yeah, here iz a pic....sori guys...n the girls..pray they dun find tis so quickly hahaha...wait....on second thought screw u guyz...go look at it at FOBS page kekeke...

PC Expo Midvalley 2010 Day One

The day started out rather early...even though we slept 2am the night b4, we woke up around 8:15 am tis morning...mostly due to fear of Deepavali traffic...however to our surprise the journey to Midvalley from our budget hotel onli took around 20 minutes =_=...found a nice parking spot and went in to see if the convention hall is opened or not...the time is not 9:45am and there are a lot of exhibitors waiting outside the hall...we decided to go McD for breakfast instead...chatted for a while n stared at ppl lining up to buy tickets even before the ticket counters are open!!..around 10:15am we decided to carry our stuff down and waited for the hall to open for exhibitors....dragging the 30kg package iz no joke...luckily i did not strain myself playing bowling the night before...after setting up everything, the PC Expo is finally opened to the public at 11am sharp...I was amazed at the amount of traffic...but perhaps it iz due to tis being Midvalley hahaha...it was fun explaining stuff to interested ppl n then playing the showcase computer...it iz awesome...haha i got do my job one...i managed to talk some ppl into being interested to buy stuff...thus i was rewarded wif a double-scoop Haagen Dasz chocolate ice-cream.....yumm...we had to skip lunch though n juz carried on wif some drinks...yeah the reception iz tat good...manage to catch a glimpse of the pretty girls round the place..and damn they r nice to look at...n juz wen i thought i hav given up flirting...the urge grows hahaha...there they are, posing, laughing n smiling...everything ended around 9pm...packed up and head towards KFC for dinner...dun really know wat else to eat...i think my feet died...but well i cant say it iz satisfying...sumthing iz lacking..but i dun feel my time iz wasted at all...hopefully 2molo will be better...yeah it will be better...hahaha...days like tis should last forever...i feel i belong in tat place...feel needed...i sure am glad i joined the PC Expo now...ok lo i take back my words...i m kinda satisfied~ lol...

PC Expo Midvalley 2010 Prequel

Today marks the day i depart to help my fren in PC Expo exhibition...now i m sitting on my bed in a budget hotel call Sun Inn opposite of Sunway Pyramid...well he has experience staying here so i wont question his choice...but tis iz the first time i staying in one...i guess tis iz wat my colleagues r talking about during their travels to HK or Taiwan...well it still iz better than my room though haha...my fren came to fetch me around 9.30...decided to hang out at tropicana mall for a while since he nid to check out some gaming stuff...after it iz settled, we decided to head over to Sunway Pyramid...i myself havent go there for many years so of course i agreed...well it wasnt tat grand but wasnt shabby either...went there n saw ppl practicing ice skating...quite nice haha..wanted to catch midnight movie but it starts around 12am...we still nid to wake up early 2molo to setup everything....so we decided to head elsewhere instead...to the bowling alley!! haha long time since i played bowling...scored above 100 in both games so itz all good lol...i really should play more...there were pretty girls all around Sunway...much better than the usual i see round my place...but then the reason iz kinda obvious...itz Sunway ma...lol ppl go there to hang out...of course dress up more nicely lol...i think later we will still hav supper and then finally my first PC Expo experience will begin!! Hahaha...today was considered ok de...hopefully it only gets better...however i still nid to handle my year end appraisal...haiz...n after the briefing by my manager today....things seem kinda bleak =_=...tis time my persuasive skills will really be put to the test...nitez everyone

Savage Dog Cerberus

Hahah i m writing tis post while listening to tis song...besides, the title sounds totally wicked...as some of u may know, today i nid to attend the weekly night meeting wif the ppl on the other side of the world..so as i depart around 10 sumthing, can say the streets of kl iz more empty than usual...i always enjoy blazing through the roads...especially the blowing wind...gives me a feeling cant find anywhere else...as i m riding, my thoughts float elsewhere...i could think of many different topics...frens, work, entertainment etc...but guess i will stick wif a topic onli...yesterday i blogged bout reconnecting wif an old fren n he saying it might b the time to stop gaming...he oso asked me if my family let me drive motor in kl...so it got me thinking...izzit really tat dangerous? perhaps i hav been lucky throughout tis 1 and a half years here...but perhaps my parents would prefer me to drive a car too if possible...duno bout tat haha...but i wouldnt trade in my motor...i can skip traffic, i dun nid to pay parking n my motor iz aledi fully paid..no monthly installments...n oso the petrol costs r quite low...my income iz not tat high either...so those r my most important reasons as to why i still driving my motor...hell once i even overtake a ferrari at the highway bcoz the car iz stuck in traffic lol...i think investing in an expensive car in malaysia iz kinda dumb...even as a display of status, it iz not worth it...well there r many different kinds of ppl in this world...n it iz through tis variety that improves our life one way or the other...if we meet bad ppl, take it as experience n try to move on...if we meet good ppl, we get another good fren we can rely on...but if u meet onli bad ppl then it might b hard for u...tatz why i say try to move on...it iz not so simple sumtimes...i cant say that meeting onli good ppl iz bad...perhaps a carefree life?? hahaha...but i do hope my life iz of different shades n colours...it iz onli 1 way le...once the journey iz over, the colour of yur life will show how u live....onli 1 colour seems kinda boring doesn't it? hehehe....

Gaming time...

The reason i chose tis topic iz coz today i reconnected wif a long lost fren...and he said ppl our age mayb shud stop gaming...but i doubt tat...i think it iz a passion that iz unique to each gamer...some gamers play casually and can stop wen there r more important things going on...so r hardcore and muz spend some time daily practicing their l33t skillz or juz fulfill their addiction...i try to find my middleground between those 2...but nevertheless my gaming time will still persist...however i m suffering now due to gaming as well...it takes a lot of time from my daily schedule...and it does not help tat i find the game fun n entertaining...luckily i m still able to keep my wits around me and stop b4 it gets too serious...hmmm gaming addiction iz pretty bad actually...even though it iz cheaper and perhaps by a slight margin healthier than addiction to smoking or porn, we r still wasting money on it...but no gamer will admit tat it iz a waste...haha i agree on tat as well...but to chase after hardware to continue playing games iz very expensive..some of us dun even use the computer to itz maximum potential...but juz to satisfy our gaming or entertainment needs...well i guess it will b hard to understand for non-gamers....same as gamers not understanding the joy of modifying cars or going shopping perhaps? but i do know some 'hybrids' every now and then...hahaha ok lo..time to sleep...reason i keep on blogging evn though it iz WAY past my bedtime iz bcoz i dun wan to break my word if i am still able to keep it...nitez everyone~

Broken promises

Today is the 1st of november...and i resume blogging once more..hahaha...sorry for not keeping my word of blogging daily but if u spend onli 5 hours sleeping a day i think it is excusable to skip...hanging out wif family and frens hav nvr been so tiring...but well worth every moment...wonder wat would hav happened if i remained here...but perhaps i m juz exaggerating bout the situation...i bet i would be blogging and the days will pass juz like usual...but i do feel refreshed now...wonder how did i survive 2-3 months without going back? Well no point thinking bout it, now i nid to stand firm for another 1.5 months before heading back again...hopefully i wont need to burn through my reserve annual leave hahah...back to topic, broken promises are something nobody likes...even though u may hav a solid reason and perhaps it might even be the correct thing to do...but swallowing it iz not so simple or straightforward...perhaps the damage is lessen by being informed bout the betrayal earlier without finding out yurself...but a broken promise is a broken promise...no matter how u clean up the shards, u cant heal the scar left behind by multiple strikes...well the reason i m suddenly talking bout tis iz not due to other ppl FFK or breaking their promises with me...instead itz me who couldnt blog daily that brought about tis thought...i do experience a fair share of broken promises but if i actually bother to keep count of it all, it will do me more harm than good...i believe tis holds true for everyone out there...if u can find the capacity to let it go, then do so...some things are juz not worth the effort...