12/10/2007

Hm...aledi third day in Ipoh nia...time iz running short...today finished a part of my project...still got a long way to go...hopefully can do more in the coming weekend? But might b impossible..dunno...see how lah...hm...finally i m back to normal i guess...still kinda stressed out...still veli sensitive...but at least now got sum motivation to do work once more...like wat ppl say...sumone's gotta do it...n i m not going to let my chance at grabbing the dean's list be destroyed by other ppl...if i m stupid...if i m weak...at least i can blame myself..but to blame others...i dunno lah..mayb they got sum valid reason or sumthing...wonder how does it feels like to work wif 4 other me? hahaha....first of all it would b weird...anywayz today watched the news report bout accidents n stuff...sumtimes i think how would i feel if one of the ppl i know, ppl tat i m close wif were involved? surely it would hurt...hurt a lot..no matter how small the accident iz...i think my heart will race all the same...to lose sumone permanently once again...hahaha i was still young back then...n now i hav my necklace to remember it as long as possible...to cherish all those close me...but wat if it hurts myself by doing so?? haihz...i hav been catching up to the news lately...the child hui yi iz pretty cute....glad she could make it through her ordeal nicely..i think she will grow up to b a nice girl...hehehe...haihz...i m veli weak against girls wif dark eyes n dark straight hair...naturally dark n straight of course ^_^...but i wouldn't know if it was fake anyhow...not tat i dun like those wif curly or coloured hair though...hm...mayb the first impression will b better? hahaha...being in home truly makes me feel better...dun really feel lonely even without frens...but i m not saying i can live without them...one day hopefully i can find a group where i truly belong...frens tat i can trust...tat i wont b afraid will betray me...where i can laugh without worry...n where i can lean on wen i m feeling weak...anyhow i cant stop dreaming bout having a pretty girl to stare at all day...without her getting angry of course...in fact she would smile back right at me!!!...hahahaha i can onli dream...