27/10/2007

Yo....i m here again...luckily today the connection isnt totally hopeless...but still nothing much changed..haihz..hopefully one day the connection will b restored to the way it used to be...but i guess it wont nia..at least not tis sem...the sem iz ending looo...today juz settled the last presentation of a project...most of us got shot at...as expected by the dean though..his opinions were professional and veli useful..especially next sem wen v got a subject juz titled as 'Projek Kumpulan'...a whole sem group project...wonder wat will it be? At first wen i thought about it...i m not tat scared as i m now...wen the reality tat one project will cost me 100% marks sets in...i know it wont b easy...my first paper starts at 29th...almost finish the revision de..actually shud b finishing up now...hahaha...later tonight read through everything once or twice...rest up...then go through it 2 more times tomolo...tatz all i can do i guess..i will onli know if it iz enuf wen i hand in my paper...a few of my frens oso mentioned tat i look terribly overworked...hm..mayb itz juz tat my hair iz messier than usual...i do feel tat i m doing a lot but sumhow it seems not enuf...pushing myself to the limits..it does feel nice wen ppl make tat comment though...means they pay attention to u now n b4...hehe...speaking of my hair...sumtimes it could get so straight and arranged i cant help but stare at it a bit longer in the mirror..hahaha...if onli i could control it nia =_=...my terrible migraine over tis past few days iz gone nia...kinda happy...veli bothersome to do anything wif yur head aching..mayb i juz needed sum rest or relax a bit...yesterday night i tot of sleeping early coz today need to present the project early in the morning but i ended up rolling about...staring at the ceiling...thinking bout things...sad things again...juz tat tis time i dun hav tat disappointed or angry feeling anymore...and no i didnt cry =_=...mayb a lot of things were not meant to be...at least perhaps not in tis lifetime...to treasure everything u hav now...iz not enuf for me...veli greedy eh?? in the end i m still looking for sumone to talk to...sumone tat knows wat iz happening as well...coz if i need to explain the whole situation, i might missed out on sumthing...tis place...everyone iz veli close...i cant really juz complain to anyone...not tat i dont trust ppl or anything but itz common sense mah...anyhow wen i missed out on sumthing but i dunno wat, n the person i m talking to misunderstands the situation i might end up more frustrated then b4....hahahaha...anyway i need to continue wif my stuff de...later need to plan dinner trip nia...haihz...and yes i m blogging in the evening...so sue me.