21/11/2007

Last day of my exams loo...a feeling of emptiness wells in my heart...hm...i cant really stay in the library any longer...even if i could...there iz nothing else left to do there...dun wana bother those studying for their last papers...a lot of ppl oso going back de...even wif a place to gather not many r interested to stick around...tis sem iz awfully quiet n boring...during first year it was fun to study there...got more ppl to kacau...more options...hahaha not limited to a few onli...i m not forced to mix wif ppl i dun like...tat crowd couldnt b replaced...even though got newcomers...hahaha normally they stay in their room no matter wat i say...i used to try encouraging them to come out to study in a group in the past...but it didnt worked...now i think i know why liao loh...hehe...still wan me to say it out clearly meh...i think my 'loyal' readers can figure it out de...to think the exam season of tis sem will end tis way...haihz...it had a terrible start...received a much more serious wound during recovery period summore...hahaha i m not talking bout my performance in the exams nia...how come it will end like tis...till now the message of sumone still rings in my head...'itz yur choice'...do i seriously hav a choice? i hav done everything tat i could aledi...i hav tried to forgive n forget...talking to them? do u think it would make a lot of difference? plz try to remember wat happened tat day...no matter how much i talked to them b4...hahaha it was a new way to inflict pain nia...it all started wif me waiting for sumone n miscommunication...then now it ends wif no one waited for me n oso miscommunication i guess...blame it on english mastery, forgetfulness or plain negligence? i hav nothing else to say aledi...my choice...if it was u...how would u hav reacted? dun juz talk from the side...try standing in my shoes...itz my choice to not talk to them? to no mix wif them? do u really think i can juz act like nothing happened n smile? itz not even a month after the incident...even if i wana forget oso not so fast gua...n i guess sum of u know tat i got angry wif sumone for almost a year b4...even if i forget aledi...can u guarantee tat i wont b reminded of the pain again?...nvr try nvr know ah? hahaha it wasnt u nia...easy for u to say...i m afraid...recently i received an emel about how life will end one day...how many ppl really cherish time n frens like tat? if u think i m lying or anything then itz ok...but i try to make everyday count...everything i do, i bear in mind if itz the last thing i do myself...or the last thing i do wif tat person..will i hav any regrets? i ask again...how many ppl out there think of time...think of ppl...n think of life like wat the emel said? or at the very least...think of those things as much as i do? sem1 second year of Tye King Wai 2007...iz going to end de...it iz veli tiring to think like tis in everything i do...but it makes me appreciate things more...ok loh...i better end here b4 i start cursing ppl wif death or sumthing...