There is nothing interesting in the english or chinese scene. They don't really dive into the private lives of their idols that much. I dare say I have never seen an English variety show where famous actors/actresses fool around at the level of how koreans or chinese do. All I have seen are talk shows and SNL skits. Anyway, I just finished watching a series of korean videos detailing how some of the idols go about their daily routine at their university/college or how they prepare for their numerous performances. Yes, they do study and prepare for a future outside of entertainment and they also show their pre-debut or non make-up pictures proudly even though haters will still doubt their beauty. I am not really a supporter but it wouldn't be fair to those performers that really never go under the knife before. There are also a series of videos where the korean idols practically just yell what they cannot stand about each other and at one point they were even armed with pillows. It was very entertaining as some of the quirks are rather funny and somehow I don't think any feelings were really hurt.
Since we are already in the topic of idols I guess I might as well talk about what I am looking for in a female. If you were expecting me to describe heavenly beauty akin to the korean idols I talk about then you are a bit too quick to judge. All the 'real' girls that I was interested in are normal girl-next-door types. I don't usually go for physical appearance that much as it could be faked and it doesn't matter how pretty she is if I can't even stand how she talks. Lastly, I know the feelings of people who were judged not for who they are but how they look like because I was and I think I still am a part of them. First of all, I was 88kg at my peak of horizontal growth. I was round, greasy and sweaty most of the time. I had a stupid left-to-right swipe hair style. It wasn't surprising that girls stay away from me at that time. I can love and care for her deeply but there is no use if I was never given the chance to show what I am capable of. However, I do appreciate people who take care of their own body. That way, usually a female will have an attractive figure naturally and be fit and healthy which is always a plus point.
Body size aside, I was also born with a stoic face. Furthermore my upper lip muscles are not capable of curving into a smile naturally. What does emerge is those grinning idiotic show of teeth that doesn't mean anything. It was worst when I wasn't wearing my glasses since usually our eyes are a little bit bigger when we wear glasses. There was a time when a friend of mine actually approached me as I was daydreaming asking why do I look so angry. I didn't even know how to react to that statement. That wasn't the first and last time I assure you. I dare say I am usually a chatty person but it is just that I don't mix well with strangers. Therefore, in terms of facial appearance I would appreciate if I could see how a girl will look naturally. I can't exactly expect her to don her make-up 24 hours of the day and well, sometimes you just can't really explain the attraction. I don't need a flawless beauty but preferably without serious disfigurement.
Personality-wise, I would expect someone to be at least or much more mature than I am. I always try to improve myself though my temper usually gets into the way of people trying to tell me politely. Once more, I wish to apologize to those who tried and thank you. Anyway, a mature partner would mean better judgement, mutual respect, better communication and overall a better future for the both of us. I dare say I do not want to mess around anymore. At this age, any relationship I get into should already be those I am ready to commit and I hope my future partner feels the same. But it is not like I do not appreciate people being silly or acting cute, but not to the extent of being annoying or air-headed. Occasionally blur is alright and maybe it is fun but being blur all the time is a burden to the both of us. Now the issue of being clingy depends on personal preference and of course I don't appreciate her checking up on me every hour or questioning wherever I go. You don't need to do that to make me pay attention. Play your cards correctly and I WILL be fighting for your attention instead. I like females that are confident and am not afraid to show it without being obnoxious. Stubborn ones or those that like to win without logic I would like to avoid.
With all those said, I also have standards for myself to match my requirements. Furthermore, I have already accepted that the possibility of me ending up alone till many years later is quite high. Chances that pass by only once, you can only pray there will be another one in another form in another situation. I was not prepared then, perhaps I am more prepared now. But financially, sorry girls, I can't afford you yet. To those graceful enough to say that you can pick up the tab by yourself without a problem, thank you but as a man or at least as a male, I would hope I could at least be capable of bringing you out on a date. As you may or may not know, I am currently pursuing a fit and healthy body to at least be more presentable and attractive. A guy in suit can also be a girl's best accessory. Attitude-wise, hopefully it is a constant improvement in terms of temper control and general inter-personal behaviour as well as maturity in thinking.
In conclusion, to me, the core thing that makes a girl attractive is that she is special in her own way. The main reason why I am so attracted to those korean idols is that they can be performing in a very professional manner but they also show me that they are also human. They break down my personal perception of how idols should be and that pulls my attention while making them memorable. Leaving a deep impression so to speak which in turn makes me curious to find more details about them. They play, they joke, they do stupid things and they appear to be very down-to-earth outside the stage. They look like they are very fun to spend time with and I really do want to know them better. That only serves to make them even more attractive over their physical appearance.
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